7.05AM
having a pain Halloween i dont really care what kinda day is it... i just want you...
before u close the phone what u have told me...i know what u meant...i really does.... from the start i have been doing for it, overcome to it... Everyday im still doing it and i dont stop it at all...
Everything u said...i have think of it before...every single thing... im really trying hard 2 do it...but.. time is the problem for me... it looks like i really need to had alot of time....
From that day onwards, the way u talk to me...the way u try 2 tell me,its really hurt... i knew it all...i dont know how 2 face u...everytime...when u wanna close my call... its really pain, im really afraid there wont be anymore tomorrow... but now its true, whatever i m thinking of last time... all realistic is infront of me... im trying....
Even thou, Its hurts... But no matter what i have done, im wishing it for you..
i know how disgraceful this is.. somehow, i do gasping for that...
I understand, im think over and over again... from i closed your call.. till now... i m really scared...tears are falls just like wrist cutting that its dripping...
I does really love you...i can swear... but sometimes... its not what i can control about... im not the one who gain everything...
A hopeless person like me....i dont think i really can do anything much for you.. but im really trying as much as i could..
i dont have any more other request...useless person like me would never worth anything... as always im being alone, i use to have friends to dull my loneliness...but i need you more than them... you are the person that i really loved all the time..
I am doing to be the one you said so...
I love you, i dont really used to said it for nothing..i really meant it...
Please...